December 2011
1 post
1 tag
i was gonna be perfect…was gonna make my love feel like the first time you rode your bike without training wheels- kneel before you every day like there was no one else before you. cause i’ve heard your heart beat like that breeze that could bring any violence to its knees & the best lines i’ve ever written? i plagiarized every word from the thoughts of yours i heard while you were...
November 2011
1 post
word to the wise
my mother taught me something. she said if you repeat something over & over again it loses its meaning. & our existence is the same way. you watch the sunset too often, it just becomes 6 pm. you make the same mistake over & over, you’ll stop calling it a mistake. & if you just wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up.. one day you’ll forget why.
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October 2011
1 post
5 tags
August 2011
3 posts
fragile
he is like a cardboard box. although he is in brown, or prefabricated or even a square by any means… he still has the word fragile written up the side of his stomach. his hands? they looked like spiders, like lonely spiders trying to find something to hold on to. they wove webs between my fingers, & found peace within my palms. these spiders told me stories of infinity, passion,&...
something to talk about
Ok.
What to talk about… I haven’t been much of a blogger in the past few months, but i consider myself a heavy thinker.
This does not mean i ponder on profound things throughout my day. Just in volume, i have quite the menagerie of odd thoughts. Unfortunately I have nothing to show for it, cus usually i just forget about it. So this is my effort to make my thoughts last. There...
July 2011
1 post
take over control
sometimes it’s easier to pretend that things are okay, rather than face a difficult truth. so we go through the motions, the rituals of everyday life. we hope the comfortable rhythms of familiarity will hold off the inevitable just a little longer; return things to normal, anything to buy us more time. playing pretend, make believe, it might be the one thing we never outgrow.
the more things...
June 2011
2 posts
now, i don’t know if i can change the world yet, because i don’t know that much about it. & i don’t know that much about this life & how we’re supposed to spend our time here either. & sometimes, it scares me because everyone makes it seem like if you’re not doing some GREAT with your life, then you’re not going anywhere& what you’re doing really doesn’t matter. because if you’re...
note to self
i know you are feeling frightened about what is gonna happen next, but don’t be. embrace the uncertainty. allow it to lead you places. be brave as it challenges you to exercise both your heart& your mind. use this experience to create your own path towards happiness. don’t waste time with regret. spin wildly into your next action. enjoy the present, each moment, as it comes; because you’ll...
May 2011
4 posts
perhaps
i have developed quite a keen eye for the-bigger-picture perspective. things are going to be thrown at you left& right. things you don’t want to deal with. things you wish you would’ve avoided; things you’d give your last dime to change. but sometimes there’s just simply no negotiating with life..as “Life” nods no & points with urgency to a clock,...
forgive me father for i have sinned...
how the hell does that work anyways? i mean you ask for absolution& you just automatically get it? do i have to verbally admit that i have done something wrong? or can i just start babbling about how i know i’m wrong? i don’t really have a religion, but i do have faith. so could i say that my belief is faith? or does what make me sound like some watered down hippie who...
bananas
bananas are fruits that i don’t particularly have a predilection [oh a, vocabulary word- YALE would approve of. haha] for, but it is also a word currently replacing “crap”, “darn”, & other four letter words that i’m quite fond of using. so. bananas you.
bananas.
i swear to bananas God, bananas you. if you want to be a banana, little mother-bananas, then...
confession
yeah, it scares me. you know, starting something new. because it’s all about taking a risk by exposing your heart to a stranger& putting faith into the idea of someone before you even have a chance to get to know the truth about who they really are. so, i’m takin my time with this one
… there’s no need to hurry love when i’m making up my mind, right?
March 2011
1 post
Reminder,
keep the upper hand- or at least remain in control of your emotions, in other words, shove them aside completely… this has been pretty enjoyable so far, lets try to keep it that way until the end of the ride :)
November 2010
2 posts
she moves in her own way . . .
everything changes. especially when you think you’re sure about something.
so, do you wanna know about me? if we’re gonna be honest here. i get scared sometimes. actually, most of the time. disappointed, happy, loved, alone… i feel it all. i have my doubts& i love getting my way. i dont like change, but i know it’s for the better& inevitable. there’s no...
September 2010
2 posts
you can be happy . . .
you can be happy tomorrow. you can be happy when you get through your list of things to do. you can be happy when you meet the one. you can be happy when you get the right job. you can be happy when you get that raise. you can be happy when you stop buying the things you need& start buying the things you want. you can be happy when you retire. you can be happy when the weather suits you....
wishful thinking
sometimes, i get the itch to go out for a drink thinking i might miss meeting the man of my dreams, but then i realize the man of my dreams isn’t at a bar at 11:44 on a thursday night. no, the man of my dreams is asleep in bed with his lame girlfriend he’s only now beginning to see is lame. nice enough gal, but no passion or curiosity. it was cute when she called him babe at first but now it’s ...
July 2010
3 posts
just sayin
there’s a difference between confidence& having your head so far up your own ass that you’re too blind to see that you really ‘ain’t all that.’
trust me, nothing’s sexier than a quiet confidence. just keep your mouth shut& carry yourself with some dignity& grace. shoving your underlying insecurities in everybody’s faces on the other hand? not...
on this day, you will read something that moves you& make you realise there were no more fears to fear. no tears to cry. no head to hang in shame. that every time you thought you’d offended someone, it was all just in your head& really, they love you with all their heart& nothing will ever change that. you will know that everyone& everything lives on inside you. that that...
June 2010
3 posts
role model? YIKES!
they say imitation is the biggest form of flattery. if you bend the concept backwards& forwards, i can see why people would say that. but i can’t deny my own personal reaction- CREEPED OUT.
i’ve always loved helping people out, but i also hate the idea of being someone’s role model. i don’t like feeling like my every move is being watched. so, my advice to anyone out...
yeah, yeeeeeah
there are people who say what you wanna hear. even on a rainy day, they’ll tell you the sky is clear.
sound advice.
i hereby declare that i am taking a vacation. i will adopt a “dgaf” lifestyle, if you will,& temporarily embrace an asexual perspective. i’m just not going to care for a while because it seems that it’s during those times that i happen to get everything i want.
so no more false proclamations, boys. do not feed me compliments because i am not going to believe you....
May 2010
9 posts
l e t
let the right one in
let the old dreams die
let the wrong ones go <3
ijustdontreallygiveafuckanymore.injoy.annie
open book
i’ve always been somewhat like an open book. i am always willing to share my experiences& all the deep, personal things that people normally keep to themselves, just as long as that person’s interest is genuine& there’s no malicious intent behind it.
its the part of me that likes showing people that i can be stupid& make mistakes, but gain a profound way of...
promises of the unattractive kind
if you say you’re gonna do something… then do it. if you dont want to do it, dont say you’re gonna do it. simple as that. how hard is it to comprehend? seriously… at least i could give you credit for keeping your word. now i just roll my eyes at your empty promises.
bullshiters are extremely UNattractive.
s p e a k
WORDS. they very often do not express thoughts very well. they always become a little different immediately as they are expressed, a little distorted, a little foolish.& through it all, i find that where sometimes words may fail, MUSIC ALWAYS SPEAKS x3
you cant buy tomorrow
there’s an entire world beyond what i can perceive. life is more than the petty things i complain about, it’s more than this enclosed space i put myself in because i’m so blinded by my own problems to even acknowledge that there are so many other meaningful things out there. i suppose self-centeredness is what makes us human& flawed beings.
still, there’s far more to...
w o r d
insecurity isnt cute.
s t e p s
i know you. you don’t want to move, but i can’t always be the one that takes a step. any more steps& i’m walking away…
April 2010
20 posts
the simple things
there’s no point to any of this. it’s all just a random lottery of meaningless tragedy& a series of near escapes. so, i take pleasure in the details. you know… a veggie burger with cheese, yeah, those are good. or the sky about ten minutes before it starts to rain,& the moment where your laughter becomes a cackle. it really is the simple things …
m o m e n t s
life is made up of years that mean nothing, & moments that mean it all…
t r y i n g
“i’ve been thinkin’ bout all the times you told me you’re so full of doubt you just can’t let it be but i know, if you keep comin’ back for more then i’ll keep on tryin & i’ve been drinkin’ now just a little too much & i don’t know how i can get in touch with you now there’s only one thing for me to do ...
wait
wait for the guy who pursues you, the one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical, the kind of guy who brings out the best in you& makes you want to be a better person. wait for the guy who will be your best friend, the person who will drop everything to be with you at anytime of the day no matter what the circumstances. wait for the guy who makes you smile like no other& when he...
i just want...
someone… .who is phenomenally handsome & funny .who buys me drinks, so i’m not left out .& then throws them away when it’s obvious i’ve had too much .who sleeps in my bed & rubs my head cuz it helps me sleep better .who will kiss me on the forehead just to reassure me .who is amazing despite his faults .who knows how to set his pride aside .who doesn’t mind waking up in...
just spill it. . .
the thing people forget is how good it can feel when you finally set secrets free. whether good or bad, at least they’re out in the open& once your secrets are out in the open, you don’t have to hide behind them anymore. the problem with secrets is even when you think you’re in control, you’re not…
it’s always better to just be honest& say what you...
diamonds in my hands . . .
i’m pretty happy right now actually. i’m proud that i’m still going despite the odds at hand. for now, i’m setting aside my complaints& i just have to be thankful for what i do have. i find that sometimes you become so preoccupied with the bad that you completely disregard all of the good& amazing blessings you have in your life. i do have a lot of good things going...
be be . . .
have some fire. be unstoppable. be a force of nature. be better than anyone here,& don’t give a damn what anyone thinks. there are no teams here, no buddies. you’re on your own. be on your own& let that little light inside shine ;)