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Hello. Quite a few people hate me, a handful of people love me& the majority of the population seems to be apathetic. I don’t mean to say that in the self-pitying sense. I take it as it is. Normally. Admittedly, I know I’ll be mentally unstable in a few years, daily meds& pillowed walls included. Did i mention i like light … ALOT? well it fascinates me with its uncanny ability to both conceal& reveal. plus, it’s really pretty when it shines through those prism like thangs. it makes my heart feel like a hot fudge sundae ♥ I’m a bitch or I’m just shy- it depends on the day. Or perhaps I’m both. I cook, as long as there’s directions, I laugh, as long as I can, I’ll entertain, as long as you don’t scare me& i’ll live as long as there’s meaning.

As you can see, most of my love is conditional. I love all, but only work to keep a few in my life. Making amends has come more easily& is now a habit I’ve grown accustomed too. I can’t say that I’ve never made a mistake, but I can honestly say that through every experience I have always gained something valuable from it. writing is my outlet. i just love to…WRITE. about anything& everything& all thats in between. I’m not perfect& I’m sure you’re not perfect either- but we can have our perfect moments& that right there is enough to get me through the day. So I promise you, if you dare to bare all with me, I’m sure you’ll realize that there’s more to me then just skin ♥


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now, i don’t know if i can change the world yet, because i don’t know that much about it. & i don’t know that much about this life & how we’re supposed to spend our time here either. & sometimes, it scares me because everyone makes it seem like if you’re not doing some GREAT with your life, then you’re not going anywhere& what you’re doing really doesn’t matter. because if you’re not super woman, you’re not saving the world which just makes you an average jane& who ever remembers the average jane? 

so yeah, that scares me… but if you make me laugh hard enough, sometimes i will forget what century i’m in& then i realize that whatever is going on right now really isn’t written in stone. & making mistakes? that’s what growing is all about, it’s about evolving& changing& even though i might not change the world. it is pretty fucking amazing that i can change myself. i can be a better person, regardless of the mistakes i made in the past. i’m not persfect, but i LIKE that about myself. i like that i mess shit up, & that i get things wrong. i don’t now much about the after life& religon, but i do believe in reincarnation. & so i believe that this isn’t my first time here& this isn’t my last time here& these aren’t the last words i’ll share. but just in case?… i am trying my hardest to get it right this time around. & i really believe that, that is really all that matters. regardless of what all those judgemental mouths are sayin. i like my life& i love myself- which is more than some of the people out there, who have more than me& have acomplished more than me, can say.& that is something to be proud of

at least, that’s something that i’m proud of

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